Are you really there, I sometimes wonder.
Or am I just talking to myself, shouting into empty space?
And when I heard You speak, was it really You?
Or was the voice I heard a figment of my imagination? My own ego self-talking?
Maybe I'm mentally ill?
People have been locked up, drugged up and had their brains fried for admitting to hearing voices...
My human side doesn't know for certain any more, but deep within my spirit, somewhere at the core of my being, I do know.
I wish the two could agree once more - so that I could be a whole person again.
I'm too tired,
HOW LONG O LORD??!!
And yet I still trust that all shall be well.
And for now I pray the prayers of Peter the coward, Thomas the doubter, Judas the betrayer and John the lover.
Help my unbelief.
For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known. 1 Corinthians 13:12
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